Verse 1
[C]
Drownin' in the Blue Nile
[F]
He sent me "Downtown Lights"
[C]
I hadn't heard it in a while
My boredom's bone deep
[F]
This cage was once just fine
Am I allowed to cry?
Verse 2
[C]
I dream of crackin' locks
[F]
Throwin' my life to the wolves or the ocean rocks
[C]
Crashin' into him tonight, he's a paradox
I'm seeing visions
[F] [G] [G]
Am I bad or mad or wise?
Chorus
[C]
What if he's written "Mine"
[G] [F]
on my upper thigh only in my mind?
[C] [G]
I'm slippin', fallin' back into the hedge maze
[F]
Oh, what a way to die
[F] [G]
I keep recalling things we never did
[C] [Am]
Messy top lip kiss, how I long for our trysts
[F]
Without ever touchin' his skin
[G] [C]
How can I be guilty as sin?
Verse 3
[F]
I keep these longings locked
[C]
In lowеrcase inside a vault
[F]
Someonе told me, "There's no such thing as bad thoughts
[C]
Only your actions talk"
[C]
These fatal fantasies
[F]
Giving way to labored breath takin' all of me
[C]
We've already done it in my head, if it's make-believe
[F] [G] [G]
Why does it feel like a vow we'll both uphold somehow?
Chorus
[C]
What if he's written "Mine"
[G] [F]
on my upper thigh only in my mind?
[C] [G]
I'm slippin', fallin' back into the hedge maze
[F]
Oh, what a way to die
[F] [G]
My bed sheets are ablaze, I've screamed his name
[C] [Am]
Buildin' up like waves crashin' over my grave
[F]
Without ever touchin' his skin
[G] [C]
How can I be guilty as sin?
Bridge
[G] [F]
What if I roll the stone away?
[C]
They're gonna crucify me anyway
[G] [F]
What if the way you hold me is actually what's holy?
[F] [G]
If long-suffering propriety is what they want from me
[C] [Am]
They don't know how you've haunted me so stunningly
[F] [G] [C]
I choose you and me religiously
Chorus
[C]
What if he's written "Mine"
[G] [F]
on my upper thigh only in my mind?
[C] [G]
I'm slippin', fallin' back into the hedge maze
[F]
Oh, what a way to die
[F] [G]
I keep recalling things we never did
[C] [Am]
Messy top lip kiss, how I long for our trysts
[F]
Without ever touchin' his skin
[G] [C]
How can I be guilty as sin?
Outro
[C] [F]
He sent me "Downtown Lights"
[C]
I hadn't heard it in a while
[F]
Am I allowed to cry?
